康復

一月開始返回康復科工作三個月。說是返回，因為曾經在那裡工作幾個月，當時仍然很green，是真正的小醫生。許多年後回來，人事已全然不同，有人離開有人加入有人飛上枝頭，只是工作程序依舊，還是十分「康復」。在康復料裡的病人，大部份也是被專科介定為有康復機會的，雖然需要時間訓練，但總有回愎行動和日常生活能力的可能。

在骨折康復女病房工作，九成以上的病人都是因骨折入院，在骨科做了手術，穩定以後便轉過來。婆婆們年紀都很大，90歲以上的比想像中多，幸好還精精靈靈有問有答，只是記性真的有點差，70歲以下的婆婆算是年輕的了。今天早上和上司及治療師們開了病情會議，回到病房繼續工作，有一位婆婆因跌倒折斷了大腿骨，加上一直也有抑鬱， 初來康復治療時精神有點混亂，這星期已可以安靜地休息做治療運動。婆婆的老公每天也來探望，為她做飯和她說話，因兩公婆都是泰國華僑，說廣東話時有些不純正，反而成為可愛的原因。在醫院兩個多星期了，婆婆希望早點出院回家，護士對婆婆說要多留一星期完成療程。老先生知道婆婆會因未能出院發脾氣，今天午飯時走來護士更枱前說著對不起，害怕他的女人給醫護人員帶來麻煩，大家看在眼裡，十分窩心，兩位老人家，平凡的相處相依，很犀利。

晚上走在銅鑼灣的街上，各人忙著行花市辦年貨，人氣強勁得透不過氣，直至回到屋宛的小平台，才感受到能夠安靜的可貴。最美麗的，是這個農曆新年有幾天假，休息有時，證明天父的應許。

Killing me softly

濕度98%的星期日下午，killing me softly with this song ...

然後

假期的尾聲。從新加坡回來，懷念那些時刻，見面，相處，一起吃飯，談笑，那是家的感覺。看音樂劇(link)，有關女巫的故事，好與壞，真的很難分界，想起男主角的說話：「It's not lying, it's looking at things another way」。能誠實面對自己面對身旁的人，很不容易。

這幾天，靜下來的時候會有點不安，相見然後分開，魂牽夢縈，就是這麼抽心。流行曲這樣唱：「何謂愛 也許不知道的比明白更多」，真的，心動了。

Embrace

2011年尾，是年結的日子。六個月的長假，然後六個月的工作，更明白傳道者的說話：「你要察看 神的作為，因 神使為曲的、誰能變為直呢。遇亨通的日子、你當樂．遭患難的日子、你當思想．因為 神使這兩樣並列、為的是叫人查不出身後有甚麼事。(傳7:13-14)」

生命裡花上了大部份時間讀書考試工作，隨波逐流從來都比堅持信仰容易。很喜歡「擁抱」embrace 這個詞語，擁抱人，擁抱生命，擁抱愛，擁抱時間而不是空間。你「擁抱」甚麼，就會成為甚麼樣的人。Marva Dawn 這樣寫耶穌在安息日治病的故事 (路13:10-17)：「耶穌確實是擁抱時間而不是空間，衪重視人多於規條。」年終，想開始一個 Not-To-Do-List，與其要做東做西，倒不如察看有甚麼 non-urgent 及 unimportant 的，刻意減少不幹，堅持重視人而不是財產或成就，依靠天父。

累了，要早睡，期待星期四的再見。

P.S. 聖誕日兩位好同事受浸，很高與，天路的朋友又多兩人，恩典的寶貴，筆墨無法形容。
Reading: Not-To-Do-List (link)

價值

生活就是充滿難處。每個人面對各自的境況，因著自身的成長背景，經歷，資源，信仰等等的影響，每天做著不同的決定。有些事情，可能沒有選擇的餘地，然而在更多的時候，還是需要選擇，無論是三選一或是50/50。龍應台2011年在港大醫學院畢業禮的一段講話，這幾天在facebook廣傳。從Patrick Manson 到國父孫中山，以至回到作為人在社會上的表現，說出了每個人對於其他人對於社會對於世界的價值觀。差不多二千二百字的講章，好戲卻在後頭，醫生的工作，是不用冠冕堂皇，而是在於讓人得到服侍醫治；是不用行政手段，而是在於讓人得到尊重，尊重同業尊重病人。自己能作多少，就盡力作多少。

"My family moved to a fishing village when I was 14. We were so poor that, when the children got sick, my mother would not dare to go to a clinic. One day, my youngest brother had a fever so high and coughed so badly that my mother was forced to go to the village doctor. We all went--four children of different age and height stood face to face with this very quiet man. He hardly spoke, and when he did speak, with a very soft voice, it was either Japanese or the Fukien dialect, which we could not understand a word of. He checked the little boy, pressed the medicine into my mother's hand, coached her in the unintelligible language how to care for the young, and refused to accept fees. And thereafter, throughout our childhood, he declined any fees from us.
That was my very first memory of a doctor's visit. The room was barely furnished but extremely clean and outside the room was a small courtyard, glittering with afternoon sunshine, and I could smell the scent of the summer jasmine in full bloom."

全文: Speech by Professor Lung Ying-tai, Faculty Graduation and Prize Presentation Ceremony November 28, 2011

That’s what Christmas is all about, Charlie Brown

The Christmas Story (King James Version) - Luke 2:1-20

"And there were in the same country shepherds abiding in the field, keeping watch over their flock by night. And, lo, the angel of the Lord came upon them, and the glory of the Lord shone round about them: and they were sore afraid. And the angel said unto them, Fear not: for, behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people. For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Saviour, which is Christ the Lord. And this shall be a sign unto you; Ye shall find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in a manger. And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host praising God, and saying, Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, good will toward men."

Christmas: http://xmasfun.com/stories/Luke/Default.asp
Make Christmas love, not war: http://www.daveburchett.com/2011/12/14/make-christmas-love-not-war-2/

板間人和紙皮人

http://news.mingpao.com/20111211/uza1_image1.htm?Mode=1 

http://news.mingpao.com/20111211/uza2.htm

http://news.mingpao.com/20111211/uzb1.htm

板間人的呼喚 (2011年12月11日 明報)

"富者對板間人和紙皮人視而不見，淋浪與淋漓卻對他們懷着敬意，「他們謙虛卻不會自卑，即使住的板間房好狹窄，還是會熱情招呼我地進去坐，其實真是不知坐在哪裏好，但他們知道我們不會因此睇小佢。有時想幫公公婆婆搬紙皮，佢會推開你話自己搬得動，你幫了他一點點就不停講多謝，每天早晚笑得好開心跟你打招呼，這正是知足者、貧亦樂。」

板間人和紙皮人沒有抱怨，旁觀者卻看到政府不應推搪卻永遠落空了的責任。「只會諗地產商和自己的利益，犧牲了這班窮人。」因為窮人沒選票，不止無權選特首，連間接投一票選選委的資格也沒有。與眾無關的特首之爭、豬狼之戰，淋浪說，「唔揀得唔得呀？我想揀普選。講真，我對他們兩人不抱期望，我只對香港人有期望——可不可以放底自己少少的利益、為了社會公義行出來？」"

 

and God saw that it was good

"At the end of my workday I used to become discouraged at what I didn't accomplish. Now I try to do what God did during the week of creation: to look at what has been accomplished that day and celebrate what is good. I think God that he has partnered with me throught the day. I take a moment to ask him to partner with me tomorrow." - John Ortberg

Genesis Chapter 1